It’s difficult for me to trust the process…or anything for that matter. Trust is an issue that I have to work on constantly and sometimes just holding on and believing that things will work out is all that is required. Acceptance is also another troublesome issue for me. Learning to accept that things are happening the way they are supposed to is something that I know inherently; yet every time I am faced with a problem, I have to go through a kicking and screaming process before accepting it.
For example, I have a financial plan implemented and I am determined to stick to it. When things go awry, inhibiting that plan, I tend to panic. That’s my plan and I am determined that it is going to work out! So on Sunday when my heat pump compressor broke for the second time in nine months, I went a bit bananas and not because I live in Virginia and the temperature is hovering at 100 degrees. Why, then? Because my financial plan does not involve purchasing a new heat pump nor does it include purchasing a new compressor when I just bought one last year. Yet my frustration got the better of me as I considered having to write a big check for a repair or an even bigger check for a new unit. “It’s not fair” I lamented to a friend via telephone (nobody wants to come here when there is no AC!)
Yet even though it is not fair, it simply “is”. I need to accept that this is occurring and my freaking out will not help one bit. On facebook the next morning, a friend was lamenting a troubling situation. One of her friends commented on her status by saying “my mom always said that it is a sin to worry. Trust God with everything.” WOW! That is just what I needed to hear. I need to accept that this thing will get fixed when it is supposed to and that my financial plan might have God ROFL, He probably has an ever better plan for me. I need to trust that I will receive exactly what I need when I am supposed to. I am not saying that I should be irresponsible and not have a plan, but to expect that everything will go according to that plan is laughable. Things go crazy sometimes and, while it is not fair, it is reality. Accept the situation and trust the process and then let it go. Things will get better and this too shall pass.
Ps - The folks at Dominion Heating and Air Conditioning diagnosed the problem and it wasn’t even the compressor - just a small part that took about 30 minutes to fix, the service was awesome and the price was muy reasonable! See? Things are already getting better!